Barely Alive & Barely Breathing

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Tuesday December 27, 2016

Positive determination creates a situation where it has to be re-fabricated at another time, thus rendering it unsustainable; but what we learn about God and his love for us in the dark, when we are near death, revealed to us by the power of the Spirit (because we know we couldn’t have created...

How Good It Feels to be Loved

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Tuesday December 6, 2016

But then it dawned on me. I'm not afraid to admit that I began to see it at the beginning of the third part, chapter 32 (yes, 32 chapters in, I finally figured it out). I figured it out when I started tearing up and my voice cracked. I didn't relate to the people in the book; I related to the...

My Body Broken

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Tuesday October 18, 2016

When I found out I was pregnant with my first son, I knew that I wanted to be the one to stay home. My husband had a wonderful full-time job that provided for me to do just that–plus, I wasn’t pulling in anything substantial being a seminarian with a part-time job working with the Doctor of...

No More Tears

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Thursday September 29, 2016

As the people weep and mourn for the sinful, law-breaking ways, Nehemiah, Ezra, and the Levites call the people to look no longer at themselves but at Another, God himself, because His joy (His unmerited joy in them) is their strength. All hope rests in Him not in them, the people. The one who will...

Remembering the Water, Forgetting the Shame

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Tuesday September 6, 2016

I had repressed and suppressed so much anger and pain, self-hatred and self-loathing, that by the time I was an official adult and on my own that anger, pain, hatred, and loathing found its way out in rather self-destructive ways; not just occasionally, but weekly and even daily. From an aggressive...

Surviving Back to School

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Tuesday August 9, 2016

So, if I’m not happy that school is in session because I’m ungrateful or lack an understanding about my children being blessings, then why am I happy to have two-thirds of my children out of the house? Is it because having just one kid to care for all day is easier than all three? Yes,...

Give Me the Baby

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Tuesday July 12, 2016

“Give me the baby,” he said to me. I shot him a glance that would have burned down the house if it could’ve, “I’m FINE.” Determined to calm the screaming infant in my arms, I attempted (once again) to get her to latch on, to nurse. She’d have none of it. And she continued to scream. I...

I See You: Loving Your Neighbor as Yourself

By: Lauren R.E. Larkin on Tuesday June 28, 2016

Reading one of my favorite online mom journals, Brain, Child, I came across an account of a mom handling a wealth of emotions and fear while her 18 month old baby undergoes a medical procedure.  There are many characters in the story, some see this mom, some don’t, and one central character...